HELP!

How can I aid you when I can’t help myself? How can I support any one else when I don’t have the command to do the same for me?
M I surviving in this world since I have to?
Self interest starts and exist everywhere, in everyone. Then why we hesitate to accept its presence, it’s the defaulted factor residing in our nature.

Unknown way to an unknown destination!

Afraid of the changes, I feel like going on a never ending path, Knowing the fact that this indefinite mystery will lead me to no where. With all the truth, I have to move on, to find my destination, which will remain unknown even if I reach there. Does this mean I m hopeless? Or is this a positive sign, of my optimistic nature, driving me toward s the finish line? Meanwhile, in this pathway I keep on having visions; visions that will look real to others, but for me they appear to be hallucination. Is the reason being my way of perceiving them, or the fault lies in others; the answer lies no where!

Momentarily I prefer to stay like stagnant water in the pond; still people don’t avoid throwing stones in the pond. The enjoyment of looking at the ripples might be the reason. Feels twinge when the ripples starts disappearing after certain time period. Why don’t they just keep going? The happiness caused due to these waves is immeasurable, likewise the sadness that overwhelms me after they vanish can ‘t be quantified either. Some times I wish I can fade away so that no one feels my existence, the fear being; I cannot accept a change inside me, but other time I do want to transform; not for myself but for other. I need a reason to transfer to another phase, which can be in the form of living being or anything.With a long way to go, an endless or definite, unknown or familiar I m also afraid to stay all alone! A beacon, a hope compelling me to move on, on an unknown way for an unknown destination helping me to get rid of the alarms; staying all alone.